JASON
Hey little boy would you like a ride, a lollipop, a puppy?
How about a baseball bat? there's one in my pants

PETER
No thank you. My mom, she said to never talk to strangers

JASON
So a kiss is out of the question then?

PETER
I'll take a chance
So where were you? Online?

Jason
Asleep?

Peter
Like half the congregation

JASON
So are we damned?

PETER
I stayed awake as long as I could

JASON
Good Catholic
I say we go fall asleep together

PETER
Do you?

JASON
Should I bring my baseball bat?

PETER
I think you should

STUDENTS
Jason

SWING
You're a superstar man

STUDENTS
Jason

MATT
Hear they couldn't guard you

STUDENTS
Jason

PETER
It's always the same

JASON
No, let's duck in here and

Girls
Jason

Girl 1
have a date for prom yet?

Girls
Jason

Girl 2
did you lose my number?

Girls
Jason

JASON
This is all just a game

You and I
You take my hand leaving me breathless
take a look in these big blue eyes so you'll understand
And know why we whisper in hallways
I'll be with you always
Running together, forever you and I

PETER
Tell me why I should trust you when the girls all lust to touch you

JASON
Cause when I have you near me I go out of my mind
Need help there?

PETER
You're cute, and it's tough to argue with a hard-on
Think that you could lend a hand here?

JASON
If I had the time

STUDENTS
Jason

JASON
Peter, don't you worry

STUDENTS
Jason

JASON
Cause I wouldn't leave you

STUDENTS
Jason

JASON
Not even for Zack

ZACK
Yo!

JASON
Hey, looking good man

STUDENTS
Jason

JASON
What we have is perfect

STUDENTS
Jason

PETER
Then we'll tell my mother

STUDENTS
Jason

JASON
Let's lay off the crack!

You and I
You and I
You take my hand leaving me breathless
take a look in these big blue eyes so you'll understand
And know why we whisper in hallways
I'll be with you always
Running together, forever you and I

PETER
There's something that I want to ask you
don't say "no" Just hear me out
After school they hold auditions
Something just to...think about

JASON
God, you asked the same thing last year
You know acting's not my thing
Plus I might go out for baseball
And I neither dance nor sing

PETER
You have never mentioned baseball
You haven't played since we were twelve
And as for "acting's not my thing"
It's obvious it's something else

JASON
I don't act

PETER
I think we're the best act this school has ever seen

JASON
So take a bow, and I'll-

PETER
You know what I mean
Just a thought, forget I brought it up

JASON
We'll think about it tonight
When everything is right
We'll shut off the lights
And cuddle in bed
And see how far we get

[Jason kisses Peter]

PETER
Is that supposed to shut me up?

JASON
Yea

PETER
Jerk

JASON
You and I
You take my hand leaving me breathless
take a look in these big blue eyes so you'll understand
And know why we whisper in hallways
I'll be with you always
Running together...

[a school bell rings]

...Miss me!

PETER
Forever you and I

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PETER
Everything’s an act,
When you’re pleasing everyone.
And he assumes that role
To such renown.
He plays a perfect part,
Straight from his heart
Knowing the risk he takes
And hoping that the house
Is not brought down.

The role of a lifetime, it's living a fantasy.
A drama that you struggle to erase.
Thoughts battle words over deeds
A war with such casualties.
All played out behind a smiling face.

God I need your guidance
Tell me what it means
To live a life where nothings as it seems.
Spending days in silent fear,
And spending nights in lonely prayer.
Hoping that one day when you wake,
Those feelings won’t be there.

So confused because I feel complete with him.
When we're alone it all somehow makes sense
Look into his eyes for some compromise
Remember the word, forget
And try to bury something so intense.

You learn to play the straight man,
Your lines become routine.
Never really saying what you mean.
But I know the scene will change,
White picket fences, and a dog,
A trophy bride, and children.
God I know that’s what he wants
But Jason what role do I play,
Am I a savior or a phase?
Am I here to damn you?
Or to help you navigate this maze.
Where confusion is a crime,
So you fill your life with sound,
And if you dance like hell,
You hope you never touch the ground.
What happens when the music stops?
In the silence will he stay?
One day he'll realize that these feelings
aren't going away,
So we drive ourselves insane,
Spinning circles in our souls,
As we dance around and play pretend.
And once again,
Reprise our roles.

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NADIA
Oh I know a girl full of confidence.
Yes, whenever she's full, she's a confident girl.
She'll have your piece of pie-
Then inhale another ten
There's a thin girl inside her with twelve of her friends.

Hips that could bear you a buffalo

JASON
Longhorn?

NADIA
Ass thats so vast I could block out the sun

JASON
You know that you're insane

NADIA
I'm a caution for the vain.
Mothers say 'Well, dear there's fat, then there's Jane.'

Plain Jane fat ass
Guilty of swallowing Jenny Craig whole
Plane Jane fat ass
Keeping society so ill at ease and loving her role.

JASON
Why are you so hard on yourself?

NADIA
Why are you such an over achiever?

BOTH
Meh...

JASON
Nadia, it's just that I know you'd be happier-

NADIA
Okay, kiddo- I didn't spend thousand of dollars on private golf lessons
so you could quit the team sophomore year.

JASON
It's mind over matter-

NADIA
If you keep your mind focused-

JASON
We just want you to be happy...

NADIA
To make us happy...

But why can't the fat girl play Juliet?
It's the plumpest of roles, so then why not pick me?

JASON
It's just a stupid show

NADIA
Says the dahsing Romeo
Well, I've played a servant for years in a row.

But I'll have the last laugh- you bet your ass.
Hurt me? You can't- I have mounds of thick skin.
Beating high school doesn't last, and someday, I have a hunch
That I'll eat them for breakfast and shit them for lunch.

Plain Jane fat ass
Hungry for love, she's a sesitive soul
Plain Jane fat ass
Keeping society so ill at ease and loving her role.

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NADIA
A quiet night at home
Silent night
A joy to pass a quiet night at home
A quiet night at home
All my friends are gone
And once again I find myself alone

A quiet night at home
Just me and my good shepherd
He and I can count a million sheep
A quiet night at home
Filling up that time
Till finally I get to sleep

A quiet night at home
Mother's worried glances
Take my hand, smile, sadly sigh
Words of wisdom
Talks of ships and princes
Soothing sagas laced with loving lies

Sadness
Who me sad?
A quiet night at home
My favorite place
'Honey, it’ll be ok
Slim down dear, things will change
For after all you’ve such a pretty face'

A quiet night at home
Play my siren song
Attracting none, my ship just wont come in
Clinging to the rigid rock of ages
Never ever even get the chance to sin
Passing two productive hours
Tearing through a hundred pages
What a tale of star crossed lovers
Life is lived on other stages

Pain adores me
God ignores me
Always thinking, thinking
Sinking, never dancing
Never asked and asking why?
Why? then never, never cry
Far too clever
Big girl
Big girl

Ships and princes
All gone home
Alone again
Again, alone

A quiet night at home
With thoughts of why
A quiet night at home
Spent getting by

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STUDENTS
We're doing time in confession
It's a sacrament of oppression
We have no need for forgiveness
Because our shit's none of his business

KYRA
I got so high I fainted

ALAN
Sometimes I don't recycle

ZACH
I finally nailed my girlfriend

LUCAS
I took some extra Nyquil

TANYA
I blinked and it was over

RORY
I swear with all my life I'll...

STUDENTS
...sin no more, I'm sorry Lord

We're doing time in confession
It's a poor man's therapy session
We have no need for forgiveness
Because our shit's none of his business
Hell no, our shit's none of his business

PETER & MATT
Father...

PETER
Can the church be wrong?

MATT
Can a sin be right?

PETER
If it's something that you feel

MATT
Something that you saw?

BOTH
Goes against the law, what do you do?

MATT
Do you tell?

BOTH
What do I follow?

PRIEST
The church's teachings come from centuries of study
Questions of doctrine are best left to greater minds than yours
This is not to say the church is never wrong
But if you hold to her creed you'll never find yourself let down

JASON
Hear my voice

MATT
Did you really hear me?

IVY
Hear my voice

KYRA
I don't think you see me

MATT & NADIA
Do you think you know me?

ZACH
Did you really see me?

DIANE & RORY
Would you really know me?
ALAN
Do you think you see me?>

ALAN, RORY, ZACH & DIANE
Hear my voice

PETER
If I ever told you...
If I ever told you...
If I ever told you...

SISTER CHANTELLE
Ok, choir, from the top

CHOIR
Two households, both alike in dignity

TANYA (to IVY)
Hey girl, your costume is gonna be fierce

JASON? or MATT?
Hey

CHOIR
In fair Verona, where we lay our scene

TANYA
Somebody had a good time the other night

IVY
I don't remember

CHOIR
>From ancient grudge break to new mutiny

JASON
Hey, you look great up there

IVY
Wait till you see me in my costume

CHOIR
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean

JASON
I meant you're really good

IVY
Oh...

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IVY
Portrait of a girl
Canvas of ages
The stage is hers
Demure and practiced beauty
Hold them all enthralled

Portrait of a girl
Object of rumour
A pose at play
They say she's fairest of them all

Paint her in
Watching one color end and one begin
Brush away what's stray
Add a finishing touch
The rapture cold as a pearl
Now the portrait has captured the girl
Now the portrait has captured the girl

Portrait of a girl

MATT
Don't mind me
I'm just watching

IVY
Painted illusion

MATT
It looks just just like you

IVY
She'll play her part
She sees that she's a work of art

MATT
Just understand I'm taken in

IVY
Watching one color end and one begin
Brush away what's stray
There's disguise in her eyes
Add shadows that dance across her skin
Hide the doubt that cries out within her

MATT
Don't know what to say
Scared to say too much

BOTH
Stripped bare beneath all the layers

IVY
Would you recognize the girl lying there?

MATT
I know there's love lying there

IVY
Sought after, trapped like a pearl
Now the portrait has captured the girl.
Now the portrait has captured the girl.

BOTH
Daring you to fall
Fairest of them all

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MATT
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to stand outside?
To watch the world and wish
You didn’t hurt so much, you cried
I know I’m not the only one
And I know I shouldn’t care
But when I feel these things are real
I wish I felt you there
And if I did, I’d ask you
How come life is so unfair?

PETER
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to be afraid?
That nothing will become
Of all the plans that you have made?
So I watch the girls surround him
And he says it’s just a game
I guess that I believe him
But it hurts me just the same
And I’m all about this stupid act
So who am I to blame?

BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Do you watch me when I cry?
And if it’s in your power,
How can you sit idly by?
I try so hard to please you
But you never seem to see

MATT
Is it my fate to sit and wait?

PETER
Wonder what my struggle means

MATT
I wish I knew that someone out there cared

PETER
Are you there?

BOTH
Cared for me

MATT
Who’s out there?

PETER
Matt?

MATT
Yeah!
Are you alright?

PETER
I’m fine

MATT
Here, have some wine

PETER
This is holy wine!

MATT
The Father hasn’t blessed it yet

PETER
In that case…

MATT
Grab a chalice

PETER
Thanks.
Life sucks…

MATT
Here, have the rest
So why’d you leave?

PETER
The party?

MATT
Yeah

PETER
I was getting kind of bored

MATT
[Laugh] Oh, me too!

PETER
There’s another reason…

MATT
Yeah?

PETER
It sucks to be ignored

MATT
I know!
I always fight to do what’s right, and this is my reward

PETER
This is my reward

BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Can you make some time for me?
They tell me that you’re out there
And they tell me that you see
I try to find the meaning
God, you know how hard I’ve tried
But I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t have any guide

MATT
They said things would get better
But I guess…they lied

PETER
Are you there?
He needs to give me more!

MATT
I’ll drink to that!

PETER
Who cares if people think we’re fine?
We’ve been through this before!
One day he’ll wake up
And realize all he needs is me
Until then, God, I wish I knew
I need a guarantee

MATT
I need to know for sure that you’ll be there

PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

BOTH
There for me

PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

MATT
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

BOTH
There for me


PETER
Who’s leading?

MATT
Well, who usually leads?

[Peter whispers in Matt's ear that he and Jason are boyfriends]

MATT
I’m going to bed
Catch you later, ok?

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IVY
Let's make the later sooner
A minute can crawl by when you have
Something you want real bad.
I spent the whole party
Just waiting for us to be alone,
But then you must've known.
Or perhaps you haven't noticed how I stare.
Are you scared?

JASON
Why should I be frightened?

IVY
I don't know, but still I can see it in your eyes
They say ‘I'm not surprised’

JASON
At what?

IVY
That I want to kiss you.
I've wanted to kiss you for so long

JASON
You're wasted and this is wrong

IVY
But why?

JASON
It could wreck the friendship

IVY
I don't know, I think you're intrigued

JASON
And why is that?

IVY
I don't think you have to ask.
Do I see some life stirring in your jeans?
How obscene.

JASON
So how bout that French kiss…French test?

IVY
‘Voules vous couche...’ Oh, what’s the rest?

JASON
‘Avec moi,’ I think it goes

IVY
It could
It's been quite a birthday

JASON
Did you get anything good?

IVY
You do know I'm misunderstood

JASON
Did you make a birthday wish?

IVY
Oh yes
Sit tight and I'll whisper it in your ear

[She whispers]

JASON
I don't think that's legal here.

IVY
Don't you want to kiss me?

JASON
I want to kiss you

IVY
Don't you want me just like I want you?
Please grant the birthday girl her wish

JASON
Ok, one kiss...

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SISTER CHANTELLE
Peter...
When the Lord sits on his mighty throne
And says 'what shall I make today?'
He don't grab a drawing board
There's no mistakes, the man don't play
He simply opens up his heart
Out come tumbling works of art
God don't make no trash

PETER
Sister Chantelle?
I would be more than glad to discuss this with you...
[he looks at her face]
...now

SISTER CHANTELLE
God don't make mistakes, y'see
Or everyone would look like me
People need to start to think
It ain't a rainbow without the pink
Shoot the foul play and tell the jury
Dance ahead make no body (?) fury
God don't make no trash

PETER
That's nice of you to say...

SISTER CHANTELLE
Shut up!

God don't have a guestlist
We're all invited to his feast
And if the church's against that well
It ain't the nuns, boy, it ain't the priests (?)
Stand up proud, straight and tall
If you don't be straight, no problem at all
God don't make no trash

PETER
I'm gonna be later for...

SISTER CHANTELLE
Heaven knows, nothing works
They're known to misquote their verse
Preaching hate, but I'm saying 'wait!'
Where did Jesus mention that?
Some are small, some are dumb
Keep on pushing, change will come
Till then just keep in sight
God is on your side
Oh!

People pointing fingers
You feel free to point it back
Two folks want to fall in love
If no one's hurt, what's wrong with that?
God is love all the time
Search your soul and I think you'll find
God don't make no trash
And if you're wondering why I'm a fan
It's because there's a black woman inside the soul of every gay man
God don't make no,
God don't make no,
God don't make no trash!

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NADIA
Hey, if you say so...
Y'know, I can't believe you missed rehearsal again
It isn't all about you!
It affects the rest of us, what you do
Look, what's wrong with you?

IVY
Nothing

NADIA
Poor Ivy, stuck wanting the one thing she can't have

IVY
You think you know me...

NADIA
Yeah, you know what?
I am so sick of you moping around when you've had
The world handed to you because you're pretty

IVY
I'd trade places with you in a fucking heartbeat

Remember back in 7th grade
Endless games of truth or dare
Double dates in dark arcades
When I close my eyes I’m there
I think my mother took this picture
Back when were all just friends
Memories that fade and flicker
Burn again when I pretend

Life is short and life is strange
Trouble now and troubled past
Times have changed they rearrange
And little girls grow up so fast
Feel it how it grows inside me
Swirling ball of anguished cries
Haunted daunted so unwanted
Feel its anger in me rise

Dream a dream then end another
Life is there to interrupt
Someone out there call me mother
Look at me mom all grown up

Good Catholic girl, her soul is saved
And now of course it comes to this
If only Ivy had behaved
Or ever stopped at just a kiss
It hits me paralyzing shudder
Face the music take a bow
Just another unwed mother
One more sad statistic now

Dream a dream then end another
Life is there to interrupt
Someone out there call my mother
Look at me I’m all grown up
Look at me I’m all grown up

Little lies and big decisions
Who to tell and where to go
Follow someone else’s vision
Or trust my own ‘cause I don’t know
Am I suppose to love this child?
Is it just that simple then?
Tell me how this change will happen
Tell me how and tell me when
Tell me how and tell me when

Dream a dream and end another
Life is there to interrupt
Someone out there tell my mother
Look at me I’m all grown up

Story ends in total damage
It’s an unforgiving world
17 how will I manage
How can I
I’m just a girl

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JASON
I know it's late, but I didn't know where else to go

PRIEST
You know you can always come here - begin

JASON
These are my sins, but where to begin?
I don't know if I have it in me, in me

PRIEST
Go on

JASON
Still I recall the peace that would fall
When I believed you could forgive me
Father, I've messed everything up
I don't know where to start
Yes, I do - God is the root of everything

PRIEST
I'm here to listen, here to understand you
Tell me what lies in your heart
And in the telling you'll find the peace you're seeking
You'll know the way once you start

JASON
Well I've tried to be strong, I've tried to belong
But I don't, or I won't, I can't, I can't
Such a simple, little word - never spoken, always heard
It's not something I can be, it's not ok, not for me
Do you know what I'm trying?

PRIEST
Yes

JASON
What do I do?

PRIEST
I know you're frightened, know I understand that
But there's only so much I would say
I can't live for you, but know that God is with you
Through Him you will find a way

JASON
But I can't see your face
I'm in such a desperate place
What do I do now?
Tell me, tell me

PRIEST
Child, confide in me

JASON
I've known long, I always thought this was wrong
If they knew my family would die, they would die

PRIEST
Go keep it quiet
I will hold your secret
You know that it's safe to confide
You're just a child, and things may change, I promise
You're young with time on your side
Focus on your graduation

JASON
It's not ok

PRIEST
Keep your mind on other matters

JASON
Am I ok?

PRIEST
Pray for courage, pray for...

JASON
Why are you distant?
Why won't you answer?
Why won't you tell me?

PRIEST
[Shouts]
You know in your heart that the teaching is clear
Faith in the Father has led your soul here
Harrow the cross, let the church be your spine
Don't question too much and you'll get along fine
Whatever you have done, I know God will forgive
That it is what He will always forgive
Go now the Spirit and live…

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JASON
Have we come to the ending?
Or am I just dreaming?
The music is gone now, the silence is strange
Can you call back that moment
On that day in September
When we first shared that secret
And everything changed?
Can you know what you meant
To a soul that was searching?
Can you know that I'm sorry
For all I've undone?
And know that in my heart
You were the only one

PETER
On that day in September it was so unexpected
The moment you kissed me, time seemed to freeze
Now I stand at a crossroad and stare at the question
If prayer were the answer I'd fall on my knees
But forward is calling and I cannot stay here
Nothing can change what you will always be
An angel sent to hold my heart and set me free

JASON / PETER
I've never been this bare / I've never been so scared
I've never felt such honesty / Don't stop we'll never leave
A moment of such peace / Each of us standing bare
Still you are here with me / Knowing who we have to be
Know as you hold my hand / I hoped and prayed
We're forever you and I / That you'd understand

BOTH

I know you're here in my heart

JASON
Please understand that I tried

PETER
Try to see it's not good bye
The act is beginning, the audience awaits

JASON
Let's stay in this moment, where secrets reveal
Here in a world where there's safety in falsehood
I have discovered the one thing that's real
That I love you and I've loved you from the start
And if you hold that close to you, we'll never be apart
Peter, please know I loved you...

PETER
God, I love you

BOTH
From the start

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CHORUS
A glooming peace this morning with it brings
The sun for sorrow will not show its head
Go hence to talk no more of these sad things
Some shall be pardoned and some punished

PRIEST
I'm sorry

PETER
I know

PRIEST
People come to the church in times like these for answers
But I have none...most words fall empty, but I'll try...
It is a horrible thing that no one should have to go through
Losing a friend at such a young age
You know, but you should know, that he is in a much better place
We'll always ask ourselves if there was something more
That could have been done...and that's natural

PETER
Do you ask yourself that, Father?

PRIEST
Me?

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PETER
He went to you for guidance
You hid behind a screen
Knowing how much empathy might mean
Do you know how much he loved...?
Did you know how much he cared...?
Lost in the teaching was a...boy
So all alone and scared
Father, we were so in love!
And that's what I find so odd
Our love was pure and nothing else
Brought me closer to God

PRIEST
I'm sorry, Peter

PETER
I forgive you... Father

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NADIA
Dear Jason, there will be tears today
But we'll get through and you'll be there
I'll leave a chair for you, you made it too
You held your mystery so close
But I knew, I knew your way
Never found the words to say
Always thought we'd talk one day

IVY
Dear Jason, you can't begin to know
The pain you've caused
How do I make sense of what I've gained
And what I lost?
What a mess, a perfect mess
Left alone to sort it out
In the sorrow, guilt, and rage
I keep coming back to doubt

MATT
I'd like to start with just a...
If we could take a moment...
If maybe we were silent...
Or we had spoken...
[Chorus joins in with Ahh's]
I tried to find the words to...
Just the right quotation...
But I must confess I came up empty

CHORUS
You alone the Lord most holy
You alone the Lord most high
Hear us now, steer our hearts
And grant our prayers
We bare them in Your name
Make us one with all, God, in Your name

PETER
Dear Jason, how did a simple love get complicated?
Days crawl by, I ask myself again
Should I have waited?
In a world that's quick to judge
I will try to understand
It's so hard to find your way
When you have no voice to guide you

CHORUS
No voice, no sound
No sound, no words
No words, no songs
No songs, no heart
No heart, no love
No love, no life
No life, no truth
No truth, no life
No voice!

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